I'M A LIAR

I'm sorry for keep lying to you
I never meant to hurt you

I guest I've make lying my habit
there are so many lies that I've said in my life
lie to my dad
lie to my mom
lie to my friends
and now...
I'm lying to you...

I'm very sorry
I promise I will change
to change a habit is hard...
but to lose you...
It's terrible...

I don't deserve good things
I don't deserve forgiveness
I don't deserve anything

I'm useless
I'm hopeless
I'm nothing more than just a big fat liar

I've learn something very very important...
Never Ever lies to anyone
especially when she is the one you love

Yun,
I've lie to you about that girl
and I regret it
I should have just tell you the actual truth
But I have never lie to you about how I feel for you
I Love You and only you forever and ever...

I'll Love You...only you...in my life...

no manner what happened in the future
I'll always love you
and only you alone

no manner how many girls that i have met,
how many girls i have liked,
how many girls i have been together with,
I've never been serious with them

In your case is different
you have changed me
being with you is not the option that i can decide
Loving you is the option that i have
and I'll take that option

I never take the love world so seriously before i met you
before meeting you
i dun feel anything when breaking up
but after meeting you
being with you
my heart burns when u say wanted break up
my heart hurts when you are sad because of me

whatever you decided to do
whatever you decided to go
you may proceed with it
but i will always wait for your return
even it take me a life time
I'm willing to wait

may be because of the wrong that i have done in the pass
the sins that i have committed
I have to pay back for everything
I'm willing to pay back what i have done wrong
whatever it takes for me to have you back to my side once again

Lots of people keep telling me
girl at age of 18 is still unstable
better don't get involve

But i don't care what they say
even if it's true...so what?!
I don't care!
all i know is I LOVE YOU
I want you to be happy

I'm very sorry that I'm unable to bring you happiness
everything i do...i do for you...
every moment i live...i live for you...
every subject i study...i study for our future..

I'll continue with my study
once I have the capability to support you
I'll search for you
no manner where you are

Yun,
no manner where you decided to go for study
please don't decide it because of me
think for your own future
it's not worthy
I'll support whatever you decided
for I Love You...

My mistake again~

i can't believe that i always make mistakes like this
how am i going to improve myself?
i don't even know what is wrong, and what is right...
i always remind myself to be careful with everything i do
it might hurt you
but i don't know why...
every time i did something that i think is right...
it is always wrong

i thought you would be happy to see the message deleted
but instant
you feel like i lie to you
want to hide something from you

i will never lie to you
never ever and ever and ever...

when you are asking for the password,
i quickly go and change the password,
because i din change it before,
because i din use it already,

i thought you would be happy to see the things inside
i never even thought of that...
you will feel unhappy,
feel being lied...

please believe what i say...
i don't lie to you...
never..ever...ever...

HELP~!!!

I'm feeling so bad...!!!
I don't know what to do...
I can't stop thinking of you...
It's too hard...

I need you~
I don't think this is a good idea at all...
I can't study at all without you...
I thought i can...
but i just can't study at all...

i wanna cry so much...
i miss you...
i wanna see you...
T_T

Start of 3 weeks agreement

today is the1st day of the 3 weeks
i thought i can accept it peacefully
but i was wrong...
i just couldn't stand the life without you

without knowing
how you feel everyday
what you did each day
what you gone through each moment
did your family scold you?
did you missed me?
did you have any problem in applying for colleges?

I wish to be there with you every moment
when you're happy...
when you're sad...
when you're angry...
when you're lonely...
when you're sick...

I wish to hold you in my arm...
kiss you with my lips...
looking at your eyes, when you're looking at mine...

each moment i missing you
i felt like as if i can't breath
i can feel the pain right in to my heart
it's so hurting...

I miss you so much...
even just for a second away from you...

I wish to be with you everyday, every hour, every minute, every second...

although the agreement was not to contact each other...
in my heart...
i'm still hoping to hear from you...
i'll always keep my handphone beside me...
always hoping for your news...

Each time my hp rang,
I'll be hoping it was you...

how am i going to survive through these 19 days?
19 days without you...
will be like 19 century...

Yun darling...
I miss you so much...
if you ever feel like wanted to call me...
please be welcome...
i'll always hoping for it...

Yun...
be strong in every aspect...faith, spiritually, physically...
I believe in you with all my heart, my mind, and my soul...
I love you forever...

FOREVER LOVE

I Love You
and only you
there's no one else in my heart except you

hugging you
is a miracle for me
it gives me happiness
as well as comfort

there's no one else in the world can replace your place in my heart
there are only 1 seat in my heart
and it has your name written on it

I wish i could show you how much I LOVE YOU
but i just don't know how???
should i do things that are unexpected?
or should i just tells you how i feel?

I'm ready to do any form of sacrifice to you
I'll do anything to keep you by my side
I need you to fulfilled my life
without you, my life will be empty...

CHANGES

What is CHANGES?
it is not just a word
it's a lifestyle
everybody need it

I NEED IT
and
I WILL CHANGE

to change is hard
BUT
to lose someone that you love is worst

chose not to lose but change
that's what I WILL CHOSE

I've done lots of unpleasant things in life
things that no one could have imagined
there's no way that i can change the past

the past is history
the future is misery
but today is a gift
that is why it is called as 'present'

we have the opportunity to change
there's never too late for change
unless you don't want it

I HAVE CHANGED!!!

AND I STILL WANT TO CHANGE
NOT TO BE THE BEST
BUT TO BE BETTER

THERE'S ALWAYS A BETTER PERSONALITY TO ACHIEVE
IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO BE THE BEST
BECAUSE IF YOU BECOME THE BEST
THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING TO CHANGE
SOMETHING TO BE BETTER OF

I will change anything to prevent losing the one that i love

Yun,
I love you with my life
nothing is going to change that
no one is going to change that
please accept my past
for that's the history that i can't change
please don't leave me
I LOVE YOU FOREVER...